Went to my friends house to write and got to see some finished figures for Alarun and the awesome setup they had in place for the game the other day.
Or how I overcame the brain hurts to write a few pages.
Ok so I have been on a deadline of sorts, ok self imposed, and I have been trying to write my characters story and get ready for the first night of gaming. Of course, this is when I get one of the worst migraines that I’ve had in a long while that lays me low for a whole day. I actually slept from Friday night until 6:30 pm on Saturday and was still suffering from the after effects. Addto this that I’ve had a bit of the writers block. Needless to say it has been a hard several days.
Writing for me is actually a very visual thing. I need to see the story in my head for me to be able to “create” it. Sometimes it is dreams, sometimes it is kind of like directing a play, but it always involves me “seeing” how things play out in my head. It has always been like this when I write. For as long as I can remember I have “seen” the story play out in my minds eye before I can write it down on the page. When I get migraines which is unfortunately is far to often, it seriously affects my writing process. I can’t think straight, never mind envision the story so I can write it. So you can see, when I have one of these migraines it is the worst thing that can happen to my creative process.
Basically it is my biggest fear, when I have a deadline, self imposed or not. I love being able to express myself creatively. I need it to keep myself sane. It is one of the things that I have learned over the past year as I try to rebuild my life. My creativity is a big part of who I am, and not being able to do it is a major downer and has lead to some dark places in my life. I do truly fear never being able to be creative again. I had thought for the past few years that I had lost my creativity, my artistry, but I now know that I was just blocked. And like any sort of block you run into you need to fight your way through it.
Spent the night at my friends house, writing my short story and watching them paint and make models. It is such inspiring stuff, though I do find it hard to keep my mind in the story with such amazing stuff going on all around me. I was still able to get about 500 words down and move my story along will I watched all this cool stuff going on. Dave put some minis out on the new temple to the One God that they finished tonight (see tantalizing pic below). I can honestly say that I can NOT wait to start playing.